Out of Bondage

He stands on the threshold,
I slip on unsteady stones.
His gaze toward me and
My eyes struggle to look straight on.

I am never too far out of range,
I am never out of His sight,
But I'm not coddled or stifled of growth
I am spurned to obedience,
guided to do right.

Is this a great love?
That doesn't always pick me up every time I fall?
Doesn't always hear my complaining,
or correct a way I've made wrong?

I tell you that it is,
When I see my four lambs feet beneath,
When I cry over misguided steps,
With every inclination to retreat,
But He, unyielding, still frees me.

I don't have to convince you,
Someday you'll understand.
Our Lord isn't given to whims or feelings,
He understands the better plan.

Someday with my own.
I hope to follow His lead.
When I see the adored child, unsteady,
I will restrain every urge to hold him back,
and unwavering, release.

I'm learning an aspect of parenting that I think Christians don't often associate with our Lord, but when I think of the last test that I failed for driving, I recall a Savior that isn't always listening to my beckon call. This may not sit well with those, whose life verses revolve around "He is faithful and just to forgive....." Far be it from me to minimize a verse like that, but what about those times that you haven't heard anything from God, or you heard a different answer than you wanted to hear?

I think that will come up a lot with my children. I don't want to be a beckon call mom. I don't think that helps a kid at all. If anything it chains them to a life of selfishness. Rather, I want to see my child adapt and grow, face challenges (even at an early age) and move forward. I don't know why I thought that the Lord wouldn't want that sort of thing for me, as His child.

I PASSED THE DRIVER'S TEST!!!!!

And in other news... today is the one year anniversary of my cyst being removed. For those of you that didn't see any pictures of the HUGE thing, let me know. I'll be happy to oblige.

3 Things I'm grateful for, concerning the surgery:

1) the lesson in trusting God more than the Dr.
2) the lesson in praising His name ALWAYS
3) the closeness to my husband that was granted through the experience.

Psalm 150:1-2

PRAISE the Lord!

Praise God in His sanctuary;
Praise Him in His mighty firmament!

Praise Him for His mighty acts;
Praise Him according to His excellent greatness.